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July 25, 2010

So I got my Torah and Siddur and let me just say this: I am SO happy! I love love love it!

And, I’ve been wearing my yarmulke religiously (haha…man, am I hilarious or what?) and it feels so fulfilling. It makes me feel connected to Hashem and it’s truly is a constant reminder of my faith. I feel like I need to be a better person with it on, because it’s a representation of my faith. It’s just an amazing feeling.

This was short & sweet (like me!) with much love,

thejewbie

So, I ordered a pocket version of the Torah and the Siddur off of amazon, and I’m hoping that I receive them soon. You don’t even know how elated I am to be getting them. Unfortunately, I couldn’t get the Talmud quite yet, but I should be getting one soon, to keep on my bookshelf. I got the pocket version of the other two books so that I can take them with me and study and do my prayers wherever I am (because, being relatively sort of new to all of this, I have yet to memorize the Morning, Afternoon, and Evening prayers. They’re LONG.)

Also, I got my yarmulke today. It’s a beautiful black beaded one, and to the Untrained Jewish Eye, it looks like a small beret, kind of. I am so excited for it! I wore it all over after I got it. I have to work up the nerve to wear it around my friends and my other family members (I’m still visiting my bro), but I think I’ll be able to do it. I would have gotten a Tallit too, but MAN, they are SO expensive.

So have I mentioned yet that I’m trying to follow Tzniut? Be proud of me, it’s a big step. I am taking it little by little, you know? But I’ll get there eventually, and it makes me feel so empowered, you know? It makes me feel so good that I’m doing something for G-d, and that with my Kippah are reminders of Hashem and my love for him. It’s just so empowering and amazing, all of it. I love it!

I think I’m going to try and go to a conservative synagogue either this weekend or next, only because they fit my beliefs better (in the way that the Halakha is binding but changes a little with time, and that the Torah was G-d inspired but written by people). I’m kind of nervous and excited all at once, because only being to a Reform synagogue, I don’t really know what to expect.

I’ve also tried to pray more, and follow the Halakha of praying after a meal, when washing hands, before eating bread, (lol lots of food prayers!) etc. I can’t wait to get my Siddur so that I can start doing the morning, afternoon and evening prayers. I also can’t wait to get my Torah so I can start studying and following along with the Torah Portion of the Week by myself, just in case I miss temple.

Also, I’m trying to keep Kosher, which is actually really hard because I love pepparoni and bacon and cheese on my hamburgers.

With love,

The Jewbie

The Kippah Wars

July 15, 2010

Sorry it’s been awhile since I wrote, not that anyone reads this anyways. I’ve been busy working on a story, reading, and visiting my bro in Maryland. Exciting exciting!

So, I know I’ve talked about this plenty of times before, but I really love Kippahs. For me, it’s a sense of identity as a Jew and a sense of pride for my heritage; it also makes me feel closer to Hashem. But are women allowed to or even supposed to wear them? Most orthodox Jews would say surely not, and some scholars say it says that women aren’t required to wear it like me are because we are born spiritually closer to Hashem anyways.

But it’s a modesty thing, and a mitzvot (correct me if I’m wrong) and all the feminism inside my bones is screaming “Hey! Women should be able to wear them too! Customs, shmustoms!”

So, I’m going to say it: I’m thinking of wear a yarmulke full time. I’ll tell you how it goes. (Maybe it’ll help me to remember those mitzvots I’ve been neglecting? Like staying Kosher perhaps? Yeah.)

Dear G-d, help me and make me strong,

The jewbie

Matisyahu

July 4, 2010

Can I just say that I’m OBSESSED? I would love to go see him when he comes to Florida later this month, but I’m just not cut out to pay $40 bucks for a ticket, and neither are my friends, who I would have to bring in order to go.
That sucks.
So my braces are….not getting any better. At all. But it’s only been a couple of days, so I guess that’s to be expected. I had this huge blister on the inside of my lip that I had to cover with this stuff that’s supposed to numb and heal it. I’ve also used a ton of wax in the past three days, because my braces have been cutting up my mouth and causing me to bleed. Everyone says it should get better in a couple more days, that it only takes a week for my mouth to start getting more used to it. I hope that’s true.
I’m also leaving to go see my bro soon and stay with him for a couple of weeks. I am so psyched!
I had to miss temple this past week, and I’ll have to miss it again for the next two weeks, which I’m upset about. But I found this temple that streams online called Roots of Faith, so I’ll be watching them to get my Shabbat needed dose of Hashem.
Today is fourth of July! Happy Independence Day everyone! I hope it goes wonderfully for all of you.
I’m still sleepy so I’m gonna go catch some more shut eye.
Much love,
The Jewbie

BRACEEEESSS!

July 1, 2010

So, I got my braces on today, as you can clearly tell by the title of the post.  I was kind of late getting into the appt, but the lady got all of it done today, and it looks great. I got aqua as the band color, because it’s a color that makes me happy and I figure it I get upset about my braces I can just look at the color of them and cheer myself up.

First thing about them noted: It’s hard to floss. EXTREMELY hard. Second: Spaghetti is not a good food choice to eat with braces, if you don’t like the look of have noodles stuck between the wires.

Today will be a short post, because I am trying to eat and so I want to finish this quickly. I might post more later, if you’re lucky.

Last them, I’m crocheting a yarmulke (finally!). It’s a really pretty salmon pink color and it’s actually coming out alright so far (considering this is my first time crocheting something)

Love lots,

The Jewbie